Can't have everything

Why can't I be happy and still be able to write? Every time I come on here happy I get just a little depressed and then when I try to write I either can't do it or I have to let go of the fragile happiness I been holding so dearly. I'm not sure writing is worth it, maybe it's better just to let it go, but I was so hoping to have both.

Anything at all

What would you be if you had the ability to change into anything? But you can only change once and you can not go back. Would you change at all? Would you become a big terrifying monster who could crush anyone in your path? There's a price to pay for that life. Would you shrink, to the smallest creature imaginable so small no one would see you much less care. And if they don't care they can't hurt you. You could all but disappear. No, there's a price for that life too.

Change

What are you willing to give for stability? And what about happiness? The two are not the same, it fact they're resisting forces. You have to give in and change or you'll break. If you're counting until it's not your decision and you can no longer resit change- and I've heard you counting- then it's time to do it.